I posted this once before and deleted it because it hurt too much
This one has always been my favorite of all of your pieces
Ah thank you so much
“The story about where volcanoes come from”
It’s insane that I still love you
I’m sorry, believe me, I love you but, not in that way
Are you ever just overwhelmed by the horrifying thought that maybe, nobody ACTUALLY wants you around? And it’s not that you think everyone hates you, but it’s just that you’re not special to anyone? And that its really kind of sucky that you’re about 98% sure that nobody thinks “Wow, I just really like talking to her.” and that you could probably just disappear without anyone caring that much?
I want to die because I feel trapped yet, I am afraid of death because I don’t know what comes next. I’m afraid of waking up because I know everything could be taken from me at any moment and I hate myself because I’m poison to my relationships and everyone who loves me. I’m afraid of love because I don’t want to lose it. I’m afraid to be held because I might break. I’m scared to give my heart away because I might not get it back.
I’m just afraid